reality bites. a lot!

suddenly, after i read those simple yet crushing sentence, i feel numb.
really, i can't feel anything.
my hands are cold,
and my tears can't be stopped.

reality surely bites me, right in my heart.
in centre of my feeling.

random quotes

1. Dengan sok taunya saya mengkuliahi orang-orang di social media itu. Tapi apa ada yang salah dengan berbagi ilmu, whether it's wrong? Kalau salah pun bisa dikoreksi baik-baik kok. :)
2. I'm gonna push my self beyond my limit. Over my limitation. Mumpung saya masih muda juga 'kan?
3. Sometimes i feel so blessed because of him. Kalau saya memikirkan apa kata orang, mungkin saya akan menyerah sedari dulu. Tapi yang tahu apa yang saya rasakan hanya saya. Keputusan entah baik atau buruk, hanya saya yang merasakan. Dan apa yang saya punya dan yang telah saya lalui bersamanya lebih berharga dari apapun. :)
4. Lately, i feel like i'm living in two life. And it all FAKE. Di satu saat gw menjadi seorang yang munafik, dan di satu saat yang lain gw menjadi seorang yang labil. To be honest, i hate being in this positions. Tapi satu yang saya tahu, bahwa hidup tidak patuh pada kita, yang berlaku adalah sebaliknya.
   

bringing back the memories.

Sudah hampir setengah tahun saya selalu melewati rute yang sama. Bangunan itu masih sama seperti dulu. Masih berwarna pucat, hanya saja sekarang lebih bagus dan lebih baru. Bangunan itu selalu memberi rasa sendiri untuk saya, ketika saya lewat, dada saya berdesir. Hangat. Tenang. Tapi juga sedih.
Sudah hampir 7 atau 8 tahun berlalu, dan rasa itu masih sama. Suasana yg terekam di otak saya sepertinya masih sama. Saya rindu diri saya saat itu. Saya yang jujur, naif dan tulus. Apa saya harus kembali ke SMA untuk tahu apakah saya yang itu masih ada?

Ketika saya melihat ke dalam diri saya yang sekarang, saya berubah. Saya tidak suka saya yang baru. Saya ingin tetap menjadi saya yang lama. Tapi, dunia seakan menginginkan saya berubah. Dunia tidak lagi ramah pada saya. Dunia ingin saya lebih kaya, lebih berkembang dari sebelumnya. Dunia bukan lagi tempat yang saya kenali dulu. Dunia sekarang jahat.
Saya melihat ke sekeliling, semua sudah meninggalkan saya. Semua sudah sampai pada tujuan masing-masing. Sementara saya masih disini. Saya terlambat. Ketika menengok ke belakang, semua tidak lagi sama. Saya sendiri.

the night when you left me.

i was sitting on my bed, just thinking about me. about you. and no longer us.

i'm not asking why or how.. i just don't understand.

this is the time, i guess..

i never thought that you gonna do this.

i can't even imagine it.

but still, deep down inside, i'm longing for you.

my heart are thirst.

my eyes are blurry.

my mind are wrench everytime i think about it.

God have a bigger plan for us, dear.

i believe it with all my heart.

and i'm waiting for your heart to come home.

because i know,

that you are belong to me.

YOU and ME belong to US.

:')

shoe-fettish! is ME. :D

can i find this kind of gladiator shoes in Indonesia?

cute.. cute.. cute!!

this is so cutey :)

random quotes

1. Lucas: Have you ever wondered what marks our time here? If one life can really make an impact on the world... or if the choices we make matter? I believe they do. And I believe that one man can change many lives. For better... or worse.
   Keith: Just breathe, Lucas. It's all gonna be okay. ( One Tree Hill )
   
   
2. You ever look a picture of yourself, and see a stranger in the background?. It makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you. How many moments of other peoples life have we been in. Were we a part of someone's life when their dream came true or were we there when their dream died. Did we keep trying to get in? As if we were somehow destined to be there or did the shot take us by surprise. Just think, you could be a big part of someone elses life, and not even know it. - Lucas Scott (Chad Michael Murray)
3. Most of our lives are a series of images, they pass us by like towns on a highway. But sometimes a moment stuns us as it happens and we know that this instant is more than a fleeting image. We know that this moment, every part of it, will live on forever. - Lucas Scott (Chad Michael Murray)
4. Even miracles take a little time. - The Fairy Godmother
5. Jamie: I'm sick.
   Landon: I'll take you home. You'll be be...
   Jamie: No. Landon! I'm sick. I have Leukemia.
   Landon: No. You're 18. You - you're perfect.
   Jamie: No. I found out two years ago and I've stopped responding to treatments.
   Landon: So why didn't you tell me?
   Jamie: The doctor said I should go on and live life normally as best I could. I - I didn't want anybody to be weird around me.
   Landon: Including me?
   Jamie: Especially you!
   [Jamie looks down]
   [Landon gets upset]
   Jamie: Ya know, I was getting along with everything fine. I accepted it, and then you happened! I do not need a reason to be angry with God.
   [Jamie runs away]

it's a re-SOLUTION :D

1. Jantung sehat untuk hidup yang lebih sehat.
2. Hati yang bersih untuk hidup yang lebih bahagia.
3. Ikhlas menerima "tanda2" dari Yang Diatas.